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« Thread started on: Jul 17th, 2006, 08:17am »

A couple weeks out of that prison cell and I feel more alive than ever. This school only makes it better. It was everything I expected, apart from having my enemy.

To think that girl would apply to this academy. It can't be a coincidence.

Apart from that, I've made friends with her roommate Mitsuki who I've kind of taken a liking to since our first meeting in the library and then in the Kuroi Forest.

The other day I helped a new girl, Michiko, move into the dormitories and showed her around. Mitsuki's kind and gentle side is starting to rub off on me. I do not know whether or not I should be angry about that.

My research hasn't gotten me any farther either.
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« Reply #1 on: Jul 21st, 2006, 01:41am »

Mitsuki is gone. I think ever since I threatened to kill her cousin and the love of her life, who is dating her cousin, she's stopped speaking to me.

It isn't my fault though. If anything, she should blame Mana for doing me wrong all those years ago.

My trick on her is still in play though. Until she feels the pain I do, and for being friends with Mana, I will not let it rest.

Mitsuki's cousin, Hotaru, whom I hate with a passion will suffer a horrible, if not the same, fate.

Anyway, I've been avoiding Mana for a while. I thought about doing something for her past birthday and decided against it. It isn't my place and I shouldn't. Enemies are enemies. That will never change.
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« Reply #2 on: Jul 23rd, 2006, 6:58pm »

I met a few new people today. Their names are Lee and Rikku. Lee is a wolf, and Rikku is, I guess, a regular human. But something tells me differently.

She fights, and I think I will challenge her sometime, just for the fun of it.

There's been a drastic change in me. It's Mitsuki's influence on me. I'm..nicer. And not as uptight, ro that evil. I smile, but it's not real.

Guess I'm getting used to showing emotions, even if they are somehow the exact opposite of how I'm feeling.
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« Reply #3 on: Jul 24th, 2006, 02:33am »

Mitsuki. Goddess, wherever could you be?

I can't believe I'm missing that girl, of all people. Why hasn't she come back? I want her back. I need her back. I understand why Mana liked her at first now.

Come back... Please?

My tenshi is gone. I did something wrong like I always do. Or..Mana sent her away. Mana took her away. I know it.

I met someone new again. She..reminds me of Mitsuki. So kind to me.
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« Reply #4 on: Jul 25th, 2006, 03:10am »

I was helping Morrgian..Lee...whatever her damned name is with close combat. I wasn't using my full strength, not even 1/4th of it but I couldn't go any higher than that power since I got rusty in prison.

But when I was telling her to do a few things, to the part where told her about doing anything and observing my speed...something clicked in me.

I was fighting. And that thrill inside me emerged once more. The need to kill, to shed blood with my own hands. The merciless killer in me. Everything I was straying away from since I met Mitsuki.

It's all coming back to me.

And I don't want it to.

So I attacked without warning. Luckily she didn't get hurt from it. But I couldn't take it. The urge. It was so tempting. I had my weapons and everything.

I ran away before it came back.

At least it wasn't that time of the year...
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« Reply #5 on: Jul 29th, 2006, 11:10pm »

After briefly meeting Neomi in the fields during the night, we decided to take a walk. She held my hand, and because I was so vulnerable to emotions that night, I blushed and automatically cursed myself.

But I didn't mind it.

Then it started to pour and we hid under a tree. I wasn't cold, but she kinda was. Though that is quite obvious, her being soaked to the bone.

Neomi is a princess of demons, but I've never heard of her since I was in a pack of defiant thieves who never told me anything about rulers and such.

I found out from the Headmistress that I am the current Rosa Delmur. And to say that I am happy is underestimating how I really feel. This news made me very excited.

I hope that I make a good Rosa Delmur.
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« Reply #6 on: Jul 30th, 2006, 06:21am »

Everything becomes so confusing after a while, once it finally starts to pile up.

I never thought of being more than friends with Neomi, but maybe that's because there's another on my mind or I just need a friend.

She is fun to be around though. And she's now my room mate... who sleeps in my bed and walks around half naked in the room looking for clothes.

That was once.
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« Reply #7 on: Jul 31st, 2006, 01:48am »

The Headmistress says I should move all my belongings to the Rose Manor, seeing that I am Rosa Delmur I'll be residing there for the rest of my term.

She told me the Rosa ceremony will be held soon and there will I recieve my crest ring as Rosa Delmur. I'm pretty sure the color of the gem will be red.

It seems that I will also have to find myself a petite souer. Too bad I don't know or associate with younger classmen to find one. I'm going to have to do so soon, or else no one will hold my position and a new Rosa Delmur will be chosen in place of the absence.

I need to tell Neomi that I'll be leaving the dormitories and she's going to have to stay alone in the room, which I doubt she wants to. I doubt she likes being alone in a room.

I've spoken with Rosa Jaciel. Later I'm going to contact Rosa Mellmera. We have to plan out a few things before the student council can begin their required duties such as accepting clubs and such.

On the roof, I was disturbed by a new student. It was late, but that didn't matter. Her name is Menary and she doesn't seem like the typical girl. At least... from the ones I've met.

Morrgian happily befriended her while I studied her for a while. Menary seemed like a rebellious person by seeing that she had a tatoo, but I know my perceptions may be wrong. I gave her a warning about it, saying that it is against school regulations. However, she can have one where it isn't visable.

She seems like an interesting person. I hope to get to know her more.
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« Reply #8 on: Aug 2nd, 2006, 02:55am »

Professor Bathory assigned me to read three books on Lady Eleanor and write two page essays on each one. After that, two weeks later I'm expected to come in and take a test on it.

At least I was lucky that she went easy on me. I would have died if the Headmistress found out, or that I was sent to the Dentention Room as a punishment. I now worship the ground Professor Bathory walks on because of her mercy.

But that smile she gave me. I could feel a shiver run down my spine because of it. She's quite pretty. I noticed she's going to be my dance teacher. Damnit, I know she's going to go extra hard on me seeing as I'm a Rosa.

Today when I spoke to Glory, I adore her and her beauty but I know there's something behind it, she told me that when the Ball comes around the Rosas open with a waltz.

That means I need a partner. Not that I mind, but who the hell am I going to ask Rosa Ball with me? My partner also had to be my date. A date. Wonderful.

I know that being Rosa Delmur gets me a lot of fangirls since I'm almost exactly like Simone, who secretly was my idol, the last Rosa Delmur. Her fans just seemed to migrate to being mine.

Glory and I had joked about asking Professor Bathory since she seemed like a possible candidate, being the dance instructor and all. She's a teacher; I'm pretty sure the Headmistress would disapprove of such a thing.

I'd rather pick Glory over anyone else, seeing that Mitsuki is gone and all, but I can't. I think we each have to have our own seperate dates and not dance with each other. Not that it wouldn't stop me from asking her for one dance.

Throughout the history of Jardin, I've seen that the Rosa Delmur has had a fancy for the Rosa Jaciel, and vice versa. But it's nothing more than adoration because the Rosa Jaciel is so much more better than me.

I heard from Rikku that her and Morrgian had a fight. She started crying and even flung herself onto me, so I tried to calm her down. Then we started to play around, like how cubs tackle each other.

But everything stopped. Before I knew it, her lips were pressed to mine.

Then it was almost like a confession when she told me why she did that, and how Morrgian was now like a sister to her yet she loved her. Rikku made me so confused.

For a while I did nothing but thnk about what happened. I came to the conclusion that I'd give her a chance.

It feels nice to be in her arms.
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« Reply #9 on: Aug 3rd, 2006, 03:32am »

To wonder which choice is right. The good, the bad. It all seemed the same.

I can't take things which aren't mine, even if it's love. I learned a long time ago, that no matter who it is you love, there's nothing but pain involved in the end.

My thoughts are clouded with Mitsuki.

Mitsuki. Mitsuki. Mitsuki.

I cannot think properly. I can't even move on to love another until this is done. The wounds need to to heal, and I'm still not okay with everything.

'Cause the world is crashing down on me and the want to vomit up my heart never became stronger.

I make bad choices, and I suffer from my mistakes. I had Rikku in pain because of me. Me.

It used to be back when I first came her that I was a lying, cheating, fox thief who murdered people wth hands, guns, and sharpened weapons. To destroy the girl who ruined me, and I returned the favor.

I used to play tricks and feel no remorse in anything I did. I was the cold, mean, unapproachable girl on campus.

And now I care about everything I do! I have friends which is an amazing feat! I'm Rosa Delmur.

Can I not open my eyes to the better life yet, even though I've changed?

Is it simply not enough? Satisfying even?

I'm too unstable.
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« Reply #10 on: Aug 6th, 2006, 9:59pm »

Dear Mana,

There isn't a lot I have to say, or much for me to do. But do you remember the times where everthing was like a dream? The love so pure and fresh, there was nothing in our way to stop us?

Apart from your mother, that is, but that hadn't really mattered at all, did it?

Just that we were together; that was enough for both of us. And yet I can't remember how it all started when we began to hate each other, and that grew into something more.

Maybe, when I add more to this letter, I'll have the courage to send it to you someday.

But.. I'm sorry. For everything.


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« Reply #11 on: Aug 11th, 2006, 7:13pm »

Dear Mitsuki,

What has made you disappear, to take flight and leave me here to fend for myself? Have I disappointed you with my murderous intent, or was it simply that you dislike me for who I am?

Who I've been for the last seventeen years of my life?!

Am I to blame for the way I am?

You know what? You're gone, so it doesn't even matter anymore. Dead to me. Better yet, you never existed.

But you made a difference for someone who isn't here to see. Did you notice? Any of the little changes? Well... I have. I don't think anyone else has.

I know you'll never get this letter.

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« Reply #12 on: Aug 11th, 2006, 7:42pm »

Life as a Rosa is quite complicated.

1) Meetings, paperwork, planning out events, etc.
2) Moving out of the dorms and into the Rose Manor
3) Actng like a role model for students
4) I need to look for a petite souer, so that when I leave, they will take my place as Rosa Delmur
5) FANGIRLS!!
6) No privacey
7) Running away from fangirls is a hassle
8) No more revenge on Mana (unless I do it in secret)
9) I get to cook breakfast
10) No more threatening people
11) The Rose Manor will be the death of me if the dust doesn't go away

So... having fangirls isn't bad, but they can get annoying. Oh, and I get stalked. That is bad.

Let's see.. I'm closer to Glory, a silent cheer for this.
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« Reply #13 on: Jan 2nd, 2008, 10:30pm »

Dear Diary,

My entries are never presentable and writing has been a bore, but I decided I'd pick up my pen when I noticed you're dusty and untouched condition. I read previous entries and thought of how I used to be back then and how I am now, and I do suppose I turned into a better person but that does not erase how I can act at times. My old personality will alway remain in bits and pieces, occasionally showing itself to the world.

My image of Rosa Delmur hasn't faltered once with the Jardin girls, but I find I can be myself around Glory, who owes me one or two dances at the Ball and not to mention we have a bet going on to see who is the more popular Rosa. The loser must be her slave for the day, exactly 24 hours. Amazing, isn't it? That even us Rosas gamble and act so unlike a role model.

I'd like it if Glory admitted to her flirting with me. She's so witty and I love our simple bickering; makes me all the more attracted to her. She is somewhat different from what her profile during school is, too, almost like me. I think--no, I'm positive that I like her. All that's left is... for her to like me.

Ara, I should really start acting like a real Rosa. I do the work that I'm supposed to, after all, I am in the Student Council. Forced to attend the school functions isn't my forte however. And I should probably search for a petite souer sooner or later so that the work won't be as strenuous and the Rosa Mansion isn't limited to just three people boarding. It gets very lonely sometimes.

The petite souer would have to obviously take my interest and have qualities to be the future Rosa Delmur. Fun, too. I don't want a boring petite souer. For now, though, I think we'll be fine.
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« Reply #14 on: Jan 6th, 2008, 9:12pm »

Dear Diary,

I went to the New Years Eve Ball and it was a bore. Glory did not show up so it was a complete waste of time to show up; I almost felt like I was stood up, but she wasn't my date anyway. I stood there watching all the students have their fun dancing and chatting away mindlessly.

The bet was a tie. Glory said that we should both suffer the consequence. I would be the slave to her first, and then another day she would be mine. I'm a little irked but the idea is to spend time with her either way it turned out. I haven't been around her lately, my hopes steadily decreasing, and I need an excuse to spend time with her before she gets any suspicions.

I fear her creative imagination greatly. Maybe how she treats me will give away hints or any clues as to whether or not she likes me. That'd be really nice, but if not then I'll have to recreate my plan for when she is my servant.

I wish to know about Glory for she hasn't said much about herself. I guess in return I should give a share of my story. But how to start the conversation? That's a problem. Maybe I should randomly blurt out my past, which reminds me that I need her approval of me.

She doesn't know, I remember. She doesn't know anything about me, how I can be, how I was. What will she think?
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